How Is It That?-?-?

8 days ago Jezebel had a problem. Not uncommon for any dog that has outlived their years. But a massive problem for me.

Transportation. There is no cab, animal transportation, or other type of service that was available. Finally I got a friend to come. And this friend was thinking of throwing her in the back of her pickup truck. Pure redneck thinking. I somehow managed to lift and drag her into the back of the truck. Now pickups come in different cabs, extended, crew, and a few others. this was a extended. Meaning there was no real space. Some fold down seats but Jez was kinda thrown over a hump.

In the process I injured my neck and back. But it was something I would do for her. She loves like a dog. Something people cannot fathom.

Her odyssey at the vets was a roller coaster ride. One day I was told she had Cushing’s disease. And that her medications would start out at about 800 a month. Then when the chemotherapy had killed the adrenal glands, it would be just a couple of hundred a month. BUT…. She needed testing every 10 days.. Back to transportation..

Do I kill her and save the money? There is no guarantee of any additional life expectancy? Do I buy a truck and risk her and I on the roads? What do I do?

Then I found out that there was no definitive test for Cushing’s. And the next test they ran on her came back inconclusive.

All of this because she had an abscess in her ear that they did nothing for. They felt it would resolve itself.

But the issue remains. Is it fair of me to have animals that I cannot get into a vets if there is an emergency?

I reached out to strangers and two responded that would help with the transportation. But what if they were not available? What if they were sick? What if it were 3 in the morning?

Is it fair of me to rely on others.

I never have….

And it is an odd feeling to have to…

So do I buy a vehicle? Pay 500.00 a month for insurance and truck payments? Risk my life, Jez’s life, and maybe your life? Or do I find homes for these dogs. A home where people can handle ALL of their needs. A home where a ball can be thrown?

Then my isolation would be complete..

Then I can truly answer to no one for any actions taken…

Again…. Life is so complicated…. What is there to like about living?